I just need to escape.
Somewhere where the air is clear,
Somewhere where I can breathe,
Somewhere where I can be free,
From the chains of reality that bind me.
Somewhere far away from here.
Where second chances are denied,
And my voice is unheard through the white noise that plagues their ears.
Where gunfire is a lullaby,
And a war is raging on outside.
I just want to go.
This is not a place I will ever be able to call home.
But somewhere out there,
A better life awaits.
Somewhere I can decide my own fate.
Somewhere I am not alone.
Somewhere,
Anywhere,
Away from here.
I’m falling.
Where from?
I don’t know.
Will I hit the ground and die?
Or spread wings and take flight?
I’m falling.
Is this a dream?
It seems so much like reality.
Is someone going to catch me?
Or am I destined to fall free for eternity?
I’m falling.
What does this mean?
What is the night’s sky trying to tell me?
How long will this torture go on?
Everything feels so wrong.
I’m falling.
But I see my hometown!
I’m a there now?
Sleeping?
Safe and sound?
Or am I really falling?
I crash into the ground.
I’m not who I thought I would be.
I’m a broken,
Shattered,
Version of me.
Looking back,
I see my past mistakes.
What if I could change?
I just need a light.
Something to shine in the darkness of my mind.
Someone to tell me it’ll all be okay.
I’m tired to waiting for spring to come,
I’m in the middle of winter with no one.
I’m sorry for everything I did to you.
But I’m not the same person anymore.
I’m reborn.
I never thought that it would end,
The self-hatred I kept in,
Afraid of what there was to come,
In an endless spiral I sunk,
Deeper and deeper until choked,
That’s how it felt to be under your wing.
You made me think I was alone,
With nowhere to turn.
That I was a worthless human being,
That everyone was better off if I was six feet deep.
But I was lucky.
I did something you cannot.
I overcame your fears, I fought.
And I came out on top.
How did time manage to fly,
Away from my hands and up to the sky?
Why do I reach for the stars,
When I don’t have wings to carry me that far?
I thought I had both feet on the ground,
When I was up to the clouds.
But I didn’t come this far just to be shot back down,
I will rise up no matter how many times I am denied my crown.
I will always be strong and never look back,
For if I did I don’t know how long I would last.
I have to faith in myself;
That was my past,
This is my present,
And that is my future.
Remember when I used to tell you everything would be okay?
Weren’t those the days?
But now we must face the harsh reality,
That the world is not as perfect as we first found it to be.
And now that everything is crashing down on me,
I’m unsure if I’ll still be able to breathe.
You, though,
You still have your youth.
You still think the world revolves around you.
I, though,
I no longer have that luxury.
I can no longer be blind to the world around me.
It’s just something you realize as you age,
Too bad, for me,
I realized it at such a young stage.
It’s funny, isn’t it?
How things change.
Like how water circles down the drain,
Young love becomes deep affection,
Old friends live in different dimensions,
Time seems to come and go,
But do we ever learn the lessons we’re told?
The answer is no.
We never really change.
It doesn’t matter,
Time or place.
Mistake after mistake,
We never change.
Different.
Is what I crave to be.
Different.
Is what I will chase for eternity.
Different.
Is echoed through my brain.
But am I different?
No.
I am the same.
Different.
Is not trying to be different at all.
Different.
Is to stand out, and still stand tall.
Different.
Makes all the difference.
I don’t like it when people stare.
Makes me wish that I wasn’t there,
Makes me wish that I didn’t exist,
Why do people stare at me like this?
Don’t look at me!
It’s not what it seems,
Why do you insist on ranking me?
Calculating with every glance,
Measuring my every move,
Why don’t you just leave me be?
Don’t look at me!
Why do you keep analyzing me?
I cannot handle your eyes!
Dark and cold,
Just like your soul.
Watching me from the moment we met,
And staying with me till death.
Don’t look at me!
Please!
I’m begging,
I’m on my knees,
Don’t you hear my pleas?
Don’t,
L
I just need to escape.
Somewhere where the air is clear,
Somewhere where I can breathe,
Somewhere where I can be free,
From the chains of reality that bind me.
Somewhere far away from here.
Where second chances are denied,
And my voice is unheard through the white noise that plagues their ears.
Where gunfire is a lullaby,
And a war is raging on outside.
I just want to go.
This is not a place I will ever be able to call home.
But somewhere out there,
A better life awaits.
Somewhere I can decide my own fate.
Somewhere I am not alone.
Somewhere,
Anywhere,
Away from here.
I’m falling.
Where from?
I don’t know.
Will I hit the ground and die?
Or spread wings and take flight?
I’m falling.
Is this a dream?
It seems so much like reality.
Is someone going to catch me?
Or am I destined to fall free for eternity?
I’m falling.
What does this mean?
What is the night’s sky trying to tell me?
How long will this torture go on?
Everything feels so wrong.
I’m falling.
But I see my hometown!
I’m a there now?
Sleeping?
Safe and sound?
Or am I really falling?
I crash into the ground.
I’m not who I thought I would be.
I’m a broken,
Shattered,
Version of me.
Looking back,
I see my past mistakes.
What if I could change?
I just need a light.
Something to shine in the darkness of my mind.
Someone to tell me it’ll all be okay.
I’m tired to waiting for spring to come,
I’m in the middle of winter with no one.
I’m sorry for everything I did to you.
But I’m not the same person anymore.
I’m reborn.
I never thought that it would end,
The self-hatred I kept in,
Afraid of what there was to come,
In an endless spiral I sunk,
Deeper and deeper until choked,
That’s how it felt to be under your wing.
You made me think I was alone,
With nowhere to turn.
That I was a worthless human being,
That everyone was better off if I was six feet deep.
But I was lucky.
I did something you cannot.
I overcame your fears, I fought.
And I came out on top.
How did time manage to fly,
Away from my hands and up to the sky?
Why do I reach for the stars,
When I don’t have wings to carry me that far?
I thought I had both feet on the ground,
When I was up to the clouds.
But I didn’t come this far just to be shot back down,
I will rise up no matter how many times I am denied my crown.
I will always be strong and never look back,
For if I did I don’t know how long I would last.
I have to faith in myself;
That was my past,
This is my present,
And that is my future.
Remember when I used to tell you everything would be okay?
Weren’t those the days?
But now we must face the harsh reality,
That the world is not as perfect as we first found it to be.
And now that everything is crashing down on me,
I’m unsure if I’ll still be able to breathe.
You, though,
You still have your youth.
You still think the world revolves around you.
I, though,
I no longer have that luxury.
I can no longer be blind to the world around me.
It’s just something you realize as you age,
Too bad, for me,
I realized it at such a young stage.
It’s funny, isn’t it?
How things change.
Like how water circles down the drain,
Young love becomes deep affection,
Old friends live in different dimensions,
Time seems to come and go,
But do we ever learn the lessons we’re told?
The answer is no.
We never really change.
It doesn’t matter,
Time or place.
Mistake after mistake,
We never change.
Different.
Is what I crave to be.
Different.
Is what I will chase for eternity.
Different.
Is echoed through my brain.
But am I different?
No.
I am the same.
Different.
Is not trying to be different at all.
Different.
Is to stand out, and still stand tall.
Different.
Makes all the difference.